“If we magnified blessings as we magnify disappointments, we would all be much happier.”
~John R. Wooden
Part of me is with you
You who I’ve opened up to
You who I’ve let in
You who I’ve shared experiences with
And thought that it was true
I open up too easily too soon
They leave just as quickly as they’ve arrived
Part of me always leaves with them
The cycle starts again before I’m able to replenish
Warning signs flashing
I’m running on E
Not sure how to change
Being this way comes naturally
But it’s not good for me
Can’t you see
I’m running on E
Please help me change
Become a better me
A me that is overflowing with love, light, and confidence
A me not attached to the detached
A me who walks the talk
For them to be here with me
Perhaps this is my destiny
Always wanting and never having
They say the best things in life are free.
I’m on E.
Load shedding. Two words that are currently on South African lips as the local power provider struggles to keep up with the demands of an emerging economy, causing power failures that last for hours at a time.
It was during such scheduled load shedding last weekend that a lightbulb went on for me (only metaphorically, of course).
With no electricity and none of the distractions usually provided by it, I was actually having the most fun I’ve had in a while. I read. A lot. I lit up candles and drank red wine. I spent a whole lot of time outside; puttering around in the garden when it was light and then just appreciating the silence as night began to fall.
It was good. Restorative.
I’m making an early New Year’s resolution to unplug more often. Sure, a lot of that unplugging might not be quite voluntary but I figure carpe noctem – I’ll seize the night while it’s here.
A favorite poem of mine, always leaving me filled with warmth during the holidays.
“[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]” Copyright 1952, © 1980, 1991 by the Trustees for the E. E. Cummings Trust, from Complete Poems: 1904-1962 by E. E. Cummings, edited by George J. Firmage.